I did something incredibly hard tonight. But I’m still breathing and my heart is still beating, barely beating, but its still breathing. I’m alive. I’m alive and breathing and kind of okay. I’m strong and I’ll continue to be strong until the day I die. And who knows, maybe one day I’ll fall in love again or something… maybe I won’t be lonely the rest...
letters to a broken heart: Dear You, Tonight was... →
letterstomybrokenheart: Dear You, Tonight was the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life. And it hurts. Not as much as it will tomorrow. I guess I’m still kind of in shock now. I can’t believe I actually went through with it. I didn’t cry, my voice quivered a little bit, but I didn’t cry. I thought I would. I’m not…
A bone that breaks straight down the middle is said to hurt less and heal faster. Well, its a little too late for that now. My heart has been shattered.. slowly. Its never been a clear cut break. There’s a million little rips and tears and breaks all over. I just hope its all down now.
HOLY CRAP HOP OFF MY DICK. SERIOUSLY.
Don’t cry for a man who’s left you—the next one may fall for your smile.– Mae West (via kari-shma)
I believe that you only love once. You never lose that love. It doesn’t suddenly stop one day. Either it goes on forever, blind and undying, or it was never there. I guess that’s what I’m struggling with right now. I can’t move on and love someone else because you only love once. Which means I’ll always be stuck on your love. Or, I can love someone else. But that...
I should be upset by the news that I heard but instead I’m relieved. I almost made the biggest mistake of my life last night, expressing an interest to work on things. That mistake right there would have led me back to where I am right now in a matter of months. People change, but you didn’t. You don’t deserve to have me as your source of happiness. You don’t deserve me.
I look for the good in everyone. I try to find it all the time, no matter how slimy and scummy someone is. I like to believe that deep down inside after they spend the day being evil, right before they go to sleep they think to themselves that they don’t want to be evil anymore. They think good thoughts and they think about change. I like to think everyone does that, you know. I believe in...
I really don't have much to say tonight.
letters to a broken heart: Dear You, I found out... →
letterstomybrokenheart: Dear You, I found out you were hooking up with another girl this weekend. I’m not hurt. I mean I am, but not because of that. I’m not mad and my heart didn’t drop like it used to when I found out things like this. At first I was furious. I felt betrayed. Then I realized I wasn’t mad, I was just…
blastofclass asked: yoooo im going down to lbi from tuesday to thursday. just wanted to invite you if you wanna come down for a day or 2. i guess let me know. figured we could do a beach day like we planned.
I think right about now is the time I give up on...
There’s a few times during every break up in which something happens and breaks you. It doesn’t break you as bad as the initial blow. It reveals something you should have known all along; you aren’t over it. We like to pretend we’re happy and okay and moved on. The more we pretend we hope and hope its really true. But its a lie. Its a fake feeling, being over it. Something...
It's never too late to go back and fix things that...
Is the sun selfish when it shines? I guess I’ll spend my life answering that...– (via littlejaz)
You drain me. I’ll be out with my friends having fun and then you text me and instantly my mood shifts. I always hope no one else notices. But by the time I get home I’m exhausted. Missing you is tiring.
From Where You Are - Lifehouse
The act of actually getting out of bed, getting in the shower, and getting ready is daunting. I’m so tired, I just want to lay here and sleep forever.
It’s weird how complicated things can be. Especially feelings. You can be completely devoted to someone in all ways, physically, mentally and emotionally. But you can only do that once in your life, I think. It’s draining to completely give yourself to someone, to open up like that. If you lose that, you slowly lose your ability and interest in opening up again. You can be physically...
Its something we all do after having our hearts broken. We sit there one day and we’re so disgusted by how pathetic we are. Sitting around all day with no motivation. No happiness. Sometimes, the colors of your world even begin to fade. You just sit there breathing. Not thinking, but thinking about everything. Sometimes, you catch yourself doing weird things. I always catch myself just...
There’s something beautiful about being broken. The sadness is so deep within but its not something everyone can see. You walk around smiling and everyone just assumes you’re happy. They don’t understand… There are a few people you’ll encounter though, a very small amount of people that see the smile on your face for what it is; bullshit. They look straight into your...
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letterstomybrokenheart: Dear You, Sometimes I miss you so much its unbearable. Love, Me
No tears in the writer, no tears in the reader.– Robert Frost (via laceofpearls)
Going to see hangover 2 with my best friend jill and nico and josh and kevin yay
I’m slipping back into one of those moods. I hate being aware of it. I hate realizing that I’m about to be extremely unhappy and have no control over it. I’m trying so hard to prevent it but its inevitable now. I’m watching my happiness slip away.. helpless.
I'm drained. Emotionally, mentally and physically.
I better get numbers tonight :p
Driving DTS tonight, gettin fucked up, sobering...
should be interesting
I think my mom thinks I’m a virgin. shit just got awkward.
Anonymous asked: There are no words to describe how gorgeous I think you are. When I think of you, my day automatically gets better and I always get a smile on my face, even if we don't talk for weeks at a time. You are constantly on my mind regardless of what I say. Every little thing I say to you, I mean with all my heart (except for the mean shit haha). You are a one of a kind beautiful women and I cant...