April 2011
strav-deactivated20120108 asked: I hope you get through this break-up I am dealing with a similar situation, she cheated on me and I kept forgiving her until she eventually left me cause she was sick of hurting me. I can't even hate her, I just want her to love me back. She moved an hour away, but all of our mutual friends are still here, they support her 100% so I have no one to talk to it about. I'm just alone here at...
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It’s a rainy day today but I don’t mind. It actually relaxes me. No one is in a good mood when it’s rainy out, so I don’t have to walk around feeling this invisible pressure thats screaming at me to act happy. I’m free to mope around and look kind of sad.. I can just blame it on the weather. I’m starting to be convinced that I look prettier when I’m sad.....
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I just need to be strong. Just be strong for one whole day. Then go to sleep, and sleep away the pain and bad thoughts. And when I wake up in the morning, I’ll just be strong again. Just for the day.
Maybe I'll just try to move on.
March 2011
“IM SORRY
sometimes, i get jealous thinking that someone else
could make you...”
– (via itsmelissababyx)
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prinzecharming replied to your post:Okay soo.. I don’t know if anyone has noticed but…
It’s exactly what I wanted. I wake up, and see you. A new day, a new smile, and you don’t even dress to impress. Thank you for being that sunshine coming through my window.
ahhhh <3 thank you! you’re way too sweet!
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Okay soo.. I don’t know if anyone has noticed but I’ve been putting up a picture of what I’m wearing the past few days. I don’t know how long it’ll last but it gives me something to get out of bed for.. so I guess I’ll do it until I’m better. Weekend outfit updates will be later (sometimes not at all) because of work and whatever..
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“And if you just hold on, just find the courage to face it all for another day,...”
– Lucas Scott, One Tree Hill season 4 (via cuehappiness)
“I had to learn the hard way that some people walk into our lives and physically...”
– Arminda Meer (via itookadeepbreath)
mostbeautifulplague asked: I'm going through almost the same thing you are. My boyfriend of 3 years cheated on me, and now he's in a relationship with her. I don't know what I'm supposed to think about all of this, and at the beginning I thought it was something I did. I wasn't good enough, I didn't make him happy. All I can do is think about how good everything was and then in a second it all...
johnriordan asked: Though you may not believe me when I say it, I know EXACTLY where you're coming from. 10,000%. I've been quite literally exactly where you're at. In fact when I first started my Tumblr was when all of that was going on with me and you were one of my first followers so you saw a lot of that.
longerthaninfinity-deactivated2 asked: glad you're finally letting out that anger jenn!
500daysofjuana-deactivated20111 asked: It would be great to erase the memories. I can be okay all day and then something small will remind me again and i go from so upset to angry because he did what he did. And all of it is so overwhelming. i hate it all so much. But i figure, if i don't try to move on i'll just be torturing myself. He is so happy without me, or at least i've heard. And all i can do is cry off and on....
johnriordan asked: Would you like to rant my dear?
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I was never good at being alone, but then again neither were you. You’d always find someone else to preoccupy your time, I would too but never in a serious way. The boys that talk to me are too easy. They’ll text me babe and tell me I’m pretty, I know they don’t mean it, they just say it to get in my pants. But it’s nice to hear. You probably have someone new right...
My head is spinning and I want to cry and life...
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I’m holding on to something that I’ll never have again. I need to just let it go.. just let you go. But I want to believe there are happy endings and that love never ends and that promises won’t get broken. I need to let go..
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"You shouldn't even think about it, you should be...
Shouldn’t think about it? We walk around only half of what we could be. Then we meet someone, the one, and they complete us. We become whole. If you’ve never been whole before then you’re fine.. you’re content with only being a half because you’ve never been more than that. Do you have any idea how it feels to be whole and then go back to being incomplete? That in...
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More Tattoo Advice!
Okay, I currently have 1 tattoo:
Which reads, “Be of love a little more careful than of anything else”
I plan on adding more above that tattoo ( if it will fit! ) if not, it will go on my upper right thigh (higher up so it will be covered completely when I wear shorts and whatnot)
Anyway, I plan on getting an anchor.. designed similarly to these:
But with these colors:
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I’m fucking angry. And I have every right to be. I was so calm and collected before, but now I’m just pissed off. I hate that I have to deal with everything. I hate that I got cheated on. And I lost the love of my life. I hate you for letting go of my hand. You didn’t fucking have to. You should have fought for us. But you let go of my hand and walked out of my car. I’m...
I think I'm going to transfer to ASU..
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Does it drive you crazy? To see all those song lyrics in my statuses knowing that they’re about you, but not in a good way anymore? Does it hurt to see the pictures of me with other guys at parties? I look happy. And good. I look like I’m doing fine. And those boys, they look like their into me in the pictures. Does it hurt you at all? Do you ever lay awake and worry about me? Wonder...
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“The scars of your love, the leave me breathless, I can’t help feeling.. we...”
– Adele - Rolling in the Deep
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kind of just makes me want to cry.. like a lot..
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115 Followers!
Yay! You’re all amazing! <33333
Stay in touch, don’t be shy! xo
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Maybe the hardest part about having a broken heart...
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I always have these stupid little thoughts that race through my mind. Like, what if I get into a terrible car accident? What if I only have moments to live? Would you make it there in time to hold my hand? What if you never found out? Would you be okay with that? With knowing that the love of your life died but you weren’t there to hold her hand or tell her you love her? Would you be okay...
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I was able to go two or three or even four days at a time convinced I’d never need you again. I was able to get out of bed in the morning and feel free and smile and laugh all day long without a care in the world. I’d have a day of weakness after a period of strength, but that was okay. I allowed it, maybe even deserved it for being so strong. But as time went on it got even harder....
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I don't know how to say all the things I want to...
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1000th Post!!
Hi! Thank you all for following me and messaging me and interacting in general! 1000th post! Woooooooooooooo Keep doing what you’re doing because you’re all amazing!<3
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If it makes you less sad, I will die by your hand...
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There’s something beautiful about being broken. You see the world in a different way. Your eyes don’t sparkle the way they used to, but there’s a special glow about them. There’s a sadness that washes over them, a sadness that even the most radiant smile can’t disguise. But the sadness pulls people in, it makes them curious. There’s always the tiniest glimmer of...
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Thoughts?
My next tattoo will have my little brother’s name in it and a quote.. which one though?
“I carry your heart, I carry it in my heart”
or
“You are the smell before rain, you are the blood in my veins”
Or maybe you have a different suggestion? I’m not sure. Anyway, the first quote is in a poem by e.e. cummings. I already have a quote from him on my ribs. The...
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You crawl closer to me and breathe down my neck. I can taste the cigarette smoke on your tongue. It’s so warm and safe here in your arms, but you haunt me. You kiss my forehead and walk out without looking behind you and I lay there watching you walk away. I can smell you still.. I can feel your arms around me.
I’m pretty sure I know what my next tattoo is going to be. I have a few options, but my brother is super excited for one of them because his name will be incorporated into!
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Some days are just easier than others. Some days I wake up, get out of bed, and actually smile. I feel light on my feet. The circumstances of the day could suck, but I’m fine, I’m happy. Then there are days when my heart aches. My soul is heavy with the memories of the past and the sparkle in my eyes is replaced by sadness. I’m restless. I get random moments of anxiety and I...
