December 2010
Stare at the dot for 30 seconds and the orange...
justwrongenoughtomakeitfeelright:
breakyourlittleheartin2:
AM I THE ONLY ONE THAT SAW IT START TO GO PURPLE???
You said you had it all planned out and not to rush you so I don’t ruin it. I took that as a sign of hope. I took it as you were planning to make things official, you have a plan and a perfect time and way and that I should stop being upset so I don’t ruin your perfect plan. And thats still how I take it. But what if I’m wrong? What if this little glimmer of hope, these strings...
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there's a blizzard
or some ridiculous shit going on. so before i’m tempted to buy millions of things online that i really don’t need, i’m going to go through all of my clothes :D yay for me being responsible.
online shopping will be the death of meeeeeeeee
sindi427-deactivated20110104 asked: Oh wow I'm sorry and thank you! ♡
sindi427-deactivated20110104 asked: Oh wow I'm sorry and thank you! ♡
sindi427-deactivated20110104 asked: Your last post sounds like my life. Wait, a lot, like my life. Hope everything works out. Why aren't you and this person together if you don't mind me asking?
sindi427-deactivated20110104 asked: Your last post sounds like my life. Wait, a lot, like my life. Hope everything works out. Why aren't you and this person together if you don't mind me asking?
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Well, the holidays were so much harder than I ever thought they would be. I knew they were going to be hard.. but there were so many points during dinner when I thought I would just break down and cry. There were points when I just wanted to fake sick so I could leave. I just didn’t know what to do. You wondered how I would be introduced to the only family member I haven’t met and that...
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You wanna know how I imagine my future? I’ll be cooking breakfast one morning and my daughter will ask me who the first person I ever fell in love with was. Everything will stop for a few seconds as the memories rush to me and overwhelm me. I’ll have to blink a few times just to remember I need to answer her. I’ll turn around and face her. I won’t have to take her up to the...
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my cat is snoring.
nuff said
Merry Christmas Eve Everyone!
Right now I’m off to the lover’s house for Christmas Eve dinner with him and his family. Then we’re exchanging gifts! I spoiled him this year.
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I’ve decided I’m going to stop waiting for things to be official. Maybe everything is better this way. I don’t know. All I know is I’m done waiting for it. I’ll just be happy with the way things are.
i’ve realized i don’t miss the way we used to be.. because to be honest it was fucking horrible. but i didn’t know that.. and you didn’t either. i miss the way i thought we were. and im terrified of losing you forever
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how loud does a heart break?
I don’t know what to do to make it stop hurting. First of all, I hate this fucking world. I hate life. It hurts more than anything to sit here and think everything is fine and in reality it is so far from it. All along I was holding on to every word you said.. you said by the holidays but its clear to me that isn’t the case. Secondly, I’m tired of being so fucking upset....
11:11 .. please fucking come true
I don’t know what happening anymore. I feel so helpless.
home for the holidays
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can we get much higher?
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The stars were almost as beautiful as your eyes. If I didn’t already fall in love with you I would have fallen in love with the sky tonight. I climbed up onto the roof. It was cold and when the breeze came it chilled straight to my bones but my heart kept beating warmth through me. All I could think about was you. I just wanted you there with me to share this moment. I just feel like once in...
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The lunar eclipse is going on tonight and all I can do as I stand in the cold with my hot chocolate and wish you were next to me watching it. I have the people I live with and people from my tower.. but none of them matter. They’ll all make small talk and I’ll join them. I’ll probably even crack some jokes. But I won’t be listening or even caring really. All I’ll do...
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home
I swear the memories that live on these streets whisper to me. Its torture being home. I sit in my room and the memories surround me. I remember staring out the window at the huge moon as I stayed awake all night crying because you were gone. I remember the fights we would have in my room. I remember the intimiate moments here and the relaxing nights where we would just cuddle and watch tv all...
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Some days I just lose faith. And those days are almost always the days I come back home. These streets and familar faces make me wonder so many things. Will it ever get better? Do you honestly love me? Will you change? Will you do it again? Are you lying? Are you hiding something? Will I ever really know? I’m terrified. The fear becomes overwhelming and no matter what I do I can’t...
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Sometimes
People just lose focus. Sometimes we forget everything we have in front of us.. everything we once cherished and loved.. sometimes we forget exactly what makes us happy. It happens. Everyone forgets eventually. And sometimes the only way to remember is to make a mistake and go after all the things that don’t make you happy. It’s the best way to learn when you think about it. So what...
letters to a broken heart: Dear Heart, →
letterstomybrokenheart:
You’ve been broken for quite some time now. I still find it amazing that you’re still beating. I’ve been trying to hard to mask the pain, and for a few seconds each day, I succeed. I’m able to distract you enough to forget that you’re broken.. a real smile emerges and her eyes sparkle again like…
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Snow
The snow is falling here and it’s actually sticking. It reminds me so much of you. We were at the park with your friends. There were four of us but I can only remember you and me. Maybe Phil was there? Or possibly Drew? Marissa? I’m not sure. It was so dark out and the ground was covered in snow. Not the light and fluffy kind.. this was hard, icy snow. It probably got warmer while it...
You just got up real quick.. And even though ill wake up next to you, I miss you more than you’ll ever know…
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the thought of tomorrow is breaking my heart
Tomorrow will be the fifteenth. Thats our day. Except there is no us.. so instead it’s just a reminder of everything I don’t have. I know its foolish, but everytime the fifteenth comes around I hope and wish that you’ll make it official again. But you never do. And I spend the whole day alone, locked away from the world with a fake smile on my face pretending my heart isn’t...
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So, let me get this straight - 2 out of 3 marriages end in divorce. Larry King is getting his 8th divorce, Elizabeth Taylor is possibly getting married for a 9th time, Britney Spears had a 55 hour marriage. Jesse James and Tiger Woods are screwing EVERYTHING, yet the idea of same-sex marriage is going to destroy the institution of marriage?? REALLY…?? Reblog if you agree - Proud to support...
my schedule for today:
Lunch
Study for psychology
Gym
Study for algebra
Shower
Study for american government
Dinner
Study for psychology
Study for algebra
DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
lol jk. more like tumblr,tumblr,tumblr,facebook,food,open psych book,tumblr,tumblr,tumblr,sleep.
OMG
FINALLY I GOT PUT ON THE SCHEDULE AT APPLEBEE’S FOR THIS FRIDAY AT 5
WHICH MEANS ILL BE MAKIN SOME DOUGH
SUCH A GREAT MOOD R70384703247039574398U4E750547398HFDSKJFNSKJLDHFASKLJ
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why I write this blog
Everything that I’m going through right now is so deep, complicated, emotionally charged, and complex that to be honest, I can’t go to my friends for advice. Most of my friends have never experienced love, or a serious boyfriend on that note, so they just wouldn’t understand. The people that have experienced love haven’t necessarily been through what Nick and I are going...
last night
I hate how intensely my happiness depends on your happiness. I hate how no matter how I look at any situation nothing looks good without you. I slept over last night. It felt amazing to spend some of the day together and wake up next to you. We watched The Town and you told me I was cute because I got upset that they didn’t make it clear if the girl and the guy end up together. You said that...
boredboredbored
so attractive in krystina’s glasses!
haha.
he literally scared me so bad i cried :(
my brain is turning to mush slowly
thank you, finals. <3
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should be studying..
but math sucks!
soo instead ill take pointless pictures of myself
and go play sims 3 because there i don’t have to study, i’m already a genius, rich as fuck without a job, successful relationship, nice cars, so many friends, my hubby is a pro athlete, i have beautiful children AND im pregant. unlike in real life.
“I’m in love, and when you’re in love you don’t care what the consequences are,...”
– Rachael Farrington (via quote-book)
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Sometimes
I just get anxious. I get restless. It’s when I start to miss you. But not just when I miss you, when I know there’s nothing I can do about missing you. The last time I saw you was Friday night. We argued, fought, and misunderstood each other but finally I said something and it just clicked with both of us. Everything made sense now. I was able to say exactly what I’ve been...
“I also just love people. I mean, that might sound weird I guess, but it’s true....”
– Chris Oatley (via: dizzy-loo)
31 followers! yay (:
time to study for finals :(
I miss
johnriordan:
…the one I can rant to about my day
…tucking you in for bed at night
…holding your hand while I drive
…planning trips with you
…being able to look at you and having all of my problems go away
…being able to hold you
…my best friend
Are you gone for good?
I really hope you aren’t…
