October 2010
helpless
there is nothing i can do.
all i can do is cry.. and pray the minutes speed faster until it stops hurting.
Sometimes I just look through our pictures. The...
we're working things out.
after everything that has happened these past few...
when “i don’t care” slipped out of your mouth it broke my heart.
but i found strength in the broken promises.
ill listen when you decide you want to talk, but i can’t say for sure if ill have anything to say back.
i’m feeling oddly strong.
Grandma,
I wear your wedding ring all the time now. For you, it symbolized something beautiful and sacred. It’s only a symbol though. No ring, no matter how beautiful, delicate, sparkly, or expensive could ever properly symbolize the love you had for Grandpa. This ring symbolizes your wedding, maybe, at the most but it could never contain all the love you had for him. There are sparkly diamonds...
This is my chance
to get over you.
but getting over you isn’t the problem. the problem is i can’t see my future without you. i can’t picture myself being happy without you there. i can’t picture marrying anyone else. or having children with anyone else. i being with anyone else.
in fact, it’s not that i can’t. because i can see myself with a lot of other people. i can see...
honestly, i just want to cry right now.
just when you think your heart can't break...
